A Little Bit of Reality

So here I am thinking that when I woke up this morning it would be an ordinary day. Which in my world I should know by now... ordinary just means one adventure after another.

First on my list to do was find a church that we can baptize my Goddaughter in because the church I always go to won't do it.

Next, I had to make Arielle a Dr's appointment for tomorrow morning.

And last, something I have been putting off for about a week now... I had to call and find out what elementary school is in our district because I have to enroll Diego for Kindergarten. Yes, I've been putting off as if that will somehow deter him from starting scchool. I know it's inevitable and his time has come. But I am selfish... I want my little boy all to myself for a few more years. Because once he starts school... he's no longer ALL MINE. I will no longer be the person he depends on for everything, I will no longer be there for every thing he does big or small. He'll have a teacher to tell his stories to, he'll have friends to share the day with, and he'll be more idependent. Don't get me wrong there is such excitment in me knowing that he will learn amazing things. He'll start to read and write. And I will be the proud mommy who delights in seeing her son succeed and grow. But I am a mother... and us mothers are built with irrational fears. All that runs through my mind are the what ifs... What if he gets hurt and I am not there to kiss his boo boo and make him feel better... What if someone makes fun of him and I am not there to pick him up and tell him that he's beautiful just the way he is... What if he accomplishes something huge and is filled with excitement and I am not there to witness it firsthand?

So here I sit filling out paper after paper, detail after detail, and getting him enrolled for school. I will drop off the papers tomorrow... wish me luck. I think I need it more than he does.